A Dream

Mmm....
I had a dream about you again last night.
It was what it's always been about I guess
Of what could've been.
Of the things I see in my head.
The funny thing is, I guess I've gotten used to it.
I'm somewhat apathetic about it now...
Maybe I've just learned to accept what can and cannot be?
No, that's bullshit xD!
I've never believed in pre-ordained fate.
But still...
It's hard to keep faith.
In something as fragile as a dream.

I wonder...

Hey.
Hello.

I wonder.
Wonder so.

I love you.
Yes I do.

But I really wonder.
Wonder I really do.

If the you I love.
Was it ever really you?

I truly, really, absolutely, wonder so.
I completely, surely, certainly do so.

Or is it the doubt that speaks...?
With the uncertainty and fear laid bare...?

...I wonder if I knew it all along.
...And you know...I suppose that I knew...all along.

Now...I just want to see what lies behind...
That mask...(Is it a mask?)
That face...(Was it ever truly yours?)
That smile...(Is this really right?)

I wonder...

!?!

It's not my place to say.
Whatever words that come this way.
It's not my world to say.
Every thought that looks your way.
It's not my being to say.
That I look at you and see that there was no way.

~S/A\N/G\R/E\L~

#?!
~S/A/N/G/R/E/L~

Raging flames and blazes anew,
Burning drops of midnight dew.
Lo and behold,
The herald of our demise,
A siren who whispers eternal sorrow.
With forsaken verses that grip sadness and regret...
With a forlorn voice that quakes the very faith of our hearts...
Weak...
So weak...
We who cannot understand...
The truth she dares to let us hear...
But viced by fear.
But viced by everything we dare not comprehend...
Lo and behold...
A herald of our destruction.
A siren who whispers the truth that won't be heard.
Lo...
Angels that once were...
And may never be.

Bonfire of Dreams

I've always thought that...
Each person has their own hopes, fears, wishes, and terrors.
Each person has a flame.
A flame that burns with all the might of the world.
Or a flame that is but a wisp in the air, struggling to hold on.
We carry this flame, akin to wanderers in the life.
Traveling alone in the darkness.
Or illuminating the night with a light glow.
But on occasion that we all get together, and cast our flames together.
A heavenly blaze that burns bright with all everything we've ever had or known.
A blaze...
That I like to call the Bonfire of Dreams.

~original concept by BERSERK and thought upon by I.~

You.

YOU!
YOU!
YOU!
You.
You....
.....
.....You.

Sky

I've a wonder to fly up high.
Glancing down to see those burdened by the sky.
And I turn my head to see...
An image of you and me.
~Happy version cuts off here~
...And then I fall from this beautiful sky.
Because I know that vision is just a lie.
I know...
Because even if I wish that you truly cared.
I know you couldn't.
After all, I was just a shadow that was never there.
Crash!
Cratered into the ground.
I close my eyes and weakly say...
"I wonder...
How it is to fly up so high...
When we all are but...
Delusions of the mind...?
I wonder...
How it is to feel so good inside...
When I am but...
An empty sky..?"
~Eloquent Version~

I dreamt that I flew through the sky
And looked down to see the people who were burdened by their daily lives...
I looked around, turned my head to see an vision of you and I.
But then, my wings fade away and I plummet through the sky.
Because I remember the delusions that plagued my mind.
I know...
Because even if I hoped, wished, and believed with all my heart that you would loved me too.
I know you don't.
I'm just a shadow behind a man..
And I fall to the ground.
Bleeding and dying on the broken mess that is my body,
I close my eyes...
And with a final breath, I mutter...
"I wonder...
How's it like to fly up high...
When we're all just...
Illusions inside our own minds?
...
I wonder...
How's it like to feel warmth inside my soul...
When all I have...
Is a broken heart?"
~Heartfelt Version~

Doot Doot Do Do Do

I just want to see, just what I could do
With you in my hands
Doot doot do do do,
Doot doot do do do!
I just wonder if, any of this is true
With you my darling, anything could be too
You are all I see
You are all I want
You are all I need
Anything could be
Just baby tell me to
And I'll be standin right here!
Doot doot do do do,
Doot doot do do do!
Oh just stretch that hand
Cause I'm staying right here
Waiting for you to appear.
Doot doot do do do.
Doot doot do do do!
Just hold out that hand....
Cause I'm high up here
Waiting for you to catch me up here.
Doot doot do do do...
Doot doot do do do

Without Regard

Regardless of what once was or will ever be.
Regardless of the things that could have been or the way it should have gone.
Regardless of whatever I wished or everything I used to believe.
Regardless....Of everything that was to be.
....
Heh.
Regret eh?
Regretting everything that ever was....