A Dream

Mmm....
I had a dream about you again last night.
It was what it's always been about I guess
Of what could've been.
Of the things I see in my head.
The funny thing is, I guess I've gotten used to it.
I'm somewhat apathetic about it now...
Maybe I've just learned to accept what can and cannot be?
No, that's bullshit xD!
I've never believed in pre-ordained fate.
But still...
It's hard to keep faith.
In something as fragile as a dream.

I wonder...

Hey.
Hello.

I wonder.
Wonder so.

I love you.
Yes I do.

But I really wonder.
Wonder I really do.

If the you I love.
Was it ever really you?

I truly, really, absolutely, wonder so.
I completely, surely, certainly do so.

Or is it the doubt that speaks...?
With the uncertainty and fear laid bare...?

...I wonder if I knew it all along.
...And you know...I suppose that I knew...all along.

Now...I just want to see what lies behind...
That mask...(Is it a mask?)
That face...(Was it ever truly yours?)
That smile...(Is this really right?)

I wonder...